The Meltdown

It builds over time. You sense its presence as a small under current that boils up and then simmers down. You tell yourself again and again, “its under control; there is nothing to worry about.” However, when you least expect it – BAMM! This overwhelming and uncontrollable emotion takes control and begins to seep through your pores. It usually manifests itself via tears, sorrow, sadness and anger. I always come out the other side knowing it is only a matter of time before the next melt down.

There is always a catalyst behind the meltdowns. In this particular instance, it was an innocent “Coin Star” machine. I was taking money out of an ATM machine at the grocery store when my receipt fell on the ground. Like most environmentally conscience individuals, I bent down to pick it up. Well, it was this gesture that enabled me to collide into the machine that was perfectly in my blind spot. The jolt almost knocked me off my feet and I proceeded to have a nice headache for four days. As I look back, I probably had a concussion. It was only two days later after a dinner downtown with friends that I decided to accept a dance from a large metal pole on the side of the road. It was sad and humiliating all at the same time, but instead I shake it off and chant to myself, “I’m tough and I can handle this.”